Well I dunno where to start. Lately, things have been really hectic for me and I just can't relax or anything, which is weird because I was voted most laid back last year. Haha, but anyway, the point is I am so stressed, and it exhausts me. Thank the lord that I'm on spring break now. But anyway, there are just so many things and PEOPLE that are bothering me, and of course all I do is over analyze everything. I can't sleep because all I do is sit in my bed and wonder what so and so thinks of me, or if I'm going to do well on this or that. And I feel really bad about it too because it seems like all I do is bitch to all my friends, and I think that after they won't be my friends anymore. The only time recently that I have been totally like stress free was on the bus ride to Redmond for my tennis match (that I ended up losing), but it was like so therapudic for me. haha, as weird as it sounds... I just like listening to music and driving for a long time, because that's when I just like don't think about anything. Yeah, now I'm bitching again, well that's the whole point of this entry I guess.
Why does John insist on trying to make my life hell by threatening to stick me in a double with Sarah? WHY GOD?!?! Seriously, why doesn't anybody realize the simple fact that I am good, and she is evil. It's that simple. I swear it isn't even funny how much I loathe her, I haven't hated someone this much like... ever. Today she also asked me if in the summer I wanted to train in a double with her. WTF?!?! You gotta be fucking kidding me, I already spend enough time with her, and their is no way I'd spend my fun summer time with her. GRRRR. I think she does it on purpose too, we mutually hate eachother, and she makes it even more awkward by trying to salvage the relationship, but that ain't neva gonna happen. God I hate her, she's like the plague, it's insane how much time I spend thinking about how much I hate this girl. And yes, if you are reading this and like 'wow, hate is a really strong word', well yes I know, and that's why I'm using it. Like I don't hate anybody expect this girl, sure I dislike peoeple but, OH MY she must be my god sworn enemy or something. Ugh.
Anyways, more about crew on a slightly lighter note. Well, it's official that I will be racing in Brentwood in the Novice Quad, which is exciting, and possibly a novice double too... also good, as long as it's not with Sarah. Man, I hope that they have showers there because... like I have to shower EVERYDAY. I love being clean, it's like my thing, and nothing will take that away from me, I'll bring like a bucket to Canada if I have to. Haha. The reason I'm wondering about this is because, we're gonna be staying in a gym with Holy Names...and yeah, god I hope they have showers. I'm so tempted to email Taryn about it also, because she went last year, but I don't want to because, then she'll think I'm REALLY stupid. haha.
Speaking of stupid I have said so many dumb things in the past couple of days, oh jeez, it's embarrassing. Like seriously what is wrong with me? Am I on crack? Here are some examples...
Me, Nina, and Adri at lunch:
Me: Saying something about how I had so many awesome kegs and such. (which I didn't of course)
Nina: "yeah whatever Lindsey"
Me: "Nina you should've seen me, I like went CRAAAZY on that bottle of Jack Johnson!"
Nina + Adri: "HAAAAHAHAHAHA"
Morgan and I:
Morgan: "Yesterday Jake wore a batman suit for Kindergarten day."
Me: "Jake.... Door?"
If you weren't there you probably won't get it.... but yeah, it was definately me at my finest. Ohhhhhhhhh damn, alright, I'm outie. Peace Playas.
-Lindsey "The Destroyer" Kaghan
P.S.- I just made up the Destroyer part, I thought it sounded cool. haha.
Me = loser.
P.S.S.- Actually, I'm not a loser, scratch that.